May 30, 2014
by cancerBrat
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hiatus

I’m working out with weights in the gym—pressing 17.5 pounders above my head and then squatting and bringing them down to my ankles. After counting 16 reps, I stand the weights upright in front of me and look at myself … Continue reading

May 7, 2014
by cancerBrat
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x-rayted

The fear of cancer is legitimate: how we manage that fear, our responses to it, our emotions around it—can be manipulated, packaged, marketed and sold, sometimes by the very forces that claim to support us. That can color everything from … Continue reading

April 25, 2014
by cancerBrat
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Whammy

The surgery for an excision of a lump on my right breast was performed on a Monday morning. I’m groggy after my outpatient procedure and stumble around the house trying to act normal; clumsily fixing myself something to eat, tidying … Continue reading

April 20, 2014
by cancerBrat
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I Hate Pink

My breast lump is tiny and pokey. It measures 0.6 x 0.3 x 0.2 cm, a circumscribed tumor nodule with a parallel orientation at the 11:00 position, approximately 9 cm from the nipple. Reading over the interim print report, I … Continue reading

April 19, 2014
by cancerBrat
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Oblivious

Being diagnosed and treated for cancer is tantamount to being lead into the showers at a concentration camp under the pretenses of being deloused.  Oblivious / Part 1 I have a lump on my right breast. It might be benign … Continue reading